Its been a long time since Ive posted to this blog, but I decided to get back on the horse again, hopefully this will help me with the depression that has been knocking on my doorstep for the past few weeks. So here we go....
Ok, so I just noticed that I have not posted anything in a while. But honestly, I don't have anything new to say. There really isn't much going on. So I will just tell you about the few things that I am loving so much right now!
1. My new Blackberry Storm - OH MY GOODNESS - I love this phone. I love the text msg screen, I just love everything about it.
2. Warm Scarves - I am really getting into scarves and the nice warmth they give my scrawny neck.
3. My Husband - On Wednesday as we were sitting down to dinner he just looked over at me and asked me if I was happy (I said yeah) and do you know what he said to me?? Guess...I'll wait...... He looked me straight in the eye and said that he just wants to make sure that I am happy *** cue the violins**
4. My butt & hand warmers - my car has seat warmers AND get this steering wheel warmer. I love it.
I have a confession to make - I'm a "PK", yep a preachers kid. Not just a preachers kid but a Pastors Kid. So I was raised in church, me and my brothers were always in church. For as long as I can remember, we were going to Sunday School and Sunday evening service and Monday evening kids service, Tuesday choir practice, Wednesday Bible Study, Thursday Business Meeting, Friday Everybody meeting. Fast forward to my 20's and I started clubbing and hanging out and just having fun so I kinda stopped going regularly. Then in my 30's I moved to TX and got back into church. I loved it. Now I am married and my husband and I used to attend a church all the time, but gradually the Pastor and his wife started to say things and I started to get that odd feeling that I just didn't like what was going on. That got me to thinking that the church may not be in line with the same thoughts and biblical teachings that I have. So we both stopped going. Now we only go to church every now and then. I really want to find a church and start going. I miss that feeling of fellowship and being closer to God. But where do I start? I mean I pray to God every morning, I thank him every night. If I get to work early I will take my bible out and read a little bit. But I know that I am NOT doing everything that I could or should. UGH - I will figure it out.
A co-worker of mine had put in for a transfer from her current position to one in our IT dept. I think she actually got it - lucky her - hey do you hear that - yeah its a little bit of hater going on. Naw really I am so happy for her. She has been through a lot with her baby being a preemie (is that how you spell preemie?) so I am so happy to see her find something she wants and just grab it and take it like it was always hers! I wish i had that in me. There are so many things that I want to do and to be. Here are a few things:
1. I want to start making jewelry and selling it online
2. I want to be a nurse a RN
3. I want to travel
4. I want to learn sign language
5. I want to be more organized
6. I want to really decorate my house
7. I want to play the piano again
Those are just a few. But I know that I dont have enough faith in myself or my abilities to actually go through with it.
I got to see Twilight this weekend and I loved it. I cant wait for the next one. I really didn't like who they cast as Edward but yeah whatever. I am Team Jacob anyway!
My soccer team had a get together on Saturday night. We really did have fun. And in usual fashion not everyone showed up. Even those that paid for it - whats up with that. Hopefully the entire team next season will be more dedicated.
Tonight I spent a lot of time making some jewelry. I made a really pretty necklace, I will try to post a picture of it in the next few days. I am seriously thinking of selling it on line again. Even though my mothers store in Shreveport does sell a lot of it. It is something that I really do enjoy and it calms my nerves. I can tend to be a little high strung sometimes. My extended family went out to eat a late lunch today at The Cotton Patch. It was really good, i had the blackened fish. I will definitely be going back there. Plus it was good to see everyone again.
On a random thought here, i so want the new Blackberry Storm!!!
How long does it take to forgive someone? How long does it take to forget that you were hurt so badly by someone you trusted so much? And even though that person hurt you in ways that you will never get over, why do you still wish that person would call and just say hello, how are you, and im sorry? And even if they said it, would it matter, what would it change would it ever be the same again? Damn...i do miss my friend though even though she hurt me and crossed lines that were very solid and did irrepairable damage. Damn, i wish she would just call sometimes and just say im sorry.
Its been years since this long series of incidents happened (incidents i just cant bring myself to get into right now). When do I stop thinking if this person is ok and happy and healthy?
